Thankful: The first person that comes to my mind is my daughter. I cannot comprehend how a person does not love their child unconditionally. The true test though is to love your spouse in such a way. An adult is held to higher standards but for some strange reason even when our children become adults it seems that our love stretches so much further than it does for a spouse. God calls wives to love their husbands and husbands to live their wives as Christ loves the church. God's love is unconditional and unwavering. Therefore, we are also called to love in this way. Seems like a simple answer. The action, however, is not so simple. I fail at this goal on a daily basis. Why is it often so easy to use biting words or actions toward a person that you've pledged to honor? I often think that's it's because we become so comfortable that we just expect them to stay and love us anyway. I'm often this way with God too...sadly. I have to pick myself up (by God's grace) and try to look at this man (in my case) as a son of God and a friend to me.
In the first couple of years of my marriage, which by the way ARE the most difficult in my opinion, I would constantly feel certain that my spouse was out to get me. That I couldn't trust him and that he didn't really love me. I was so bent to make this thought into reality that I made him and myself utterly miserable. I was SO confused and mislead.
At my husbands urging I went to a half a dozen counseling sessions. They seemed to help a lot. I unraveled things about my past that I didn't even realize bothered me. Feeling the pressure lifting I could almost breathe again. I have parents that pray for me and my little family and I know that their prayers have been a tremendous help.
Now, almost 10 years into marriage, and I know for some this means we are still babies, I can say that we've made it through. But, that's not quite good enough. I want more than just to make it through a day. I want to live through it and be vitalized by my life. My daughter has helped me learn how to be more enthusiastic about EVERYTHING. God is working on the hard shell that often tries to encompass my heart...that's another blog. I am thankful for my marriage and for a man that does not give up on me (us). I am thankful for a God that gives us the perfect example of unfaltering love.
Here's my thankful list for today:
I am thankful for my husband, my beautiful daughter, my parents, friends, for food to eat, a roof over my head, the ability to walk, talk, breathe, etc, and I am thankful for God and His Grace.
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